i'd been contemplating about what kind of words that i should wrote at this moment. everytime i want to address this matter, both of my fingers and mouth just couldn't move like how it usually works. because deep down, i know no matter how certain a decision is, there must be followed by some lingering doubts. and the thought that our future, even until this exact second, has limitless possibilities didn't make it any better. but another part of me has this urge to confidently announce this big life-turning-decision that i made. and in the end, i decided to do so.

it hasn't been a month since the very first time i 'wear' his name on my ring finger. nope, i'm not married yet :) but i promised, in the name of syari'at, to keep myself for a certain someone and we promised that in the near future we will step onto the further stage of our life, together and insyaaAllah forever.

this promise carries a lot of responsibilities, which are so hard to bear. moreover because both of us barely know each other for the past two months, never converse directly, and hardly ever look into each other eyes. but gladly, i could see this opportunity to be closer with God and how to grip faithfully to His promises. this reasoning, must be sounded so naive and illogical, but i decided to believe. and alhamdulillah, no one could shaken me.

writing this doesn't mean that i'm particularly happy or want to boasting around, but i want to leave a memento. this post, is a memento which could help me to reminisce our start, so that i could stand steadily while remembering how confident i were, and how i should stay confident regarding this decision in any kind of situation.

because Allah was there, in our promise. and He always there.

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